Out of Depression to Anger and beyond

I seem to be coming out of the fog. I understood the anger that created 9/11 and so it was just more hate we had spread around the world coming back to us.

But what really knocked me back was the financial collapse. Did I loose money? No. Did I loose my job, no. it just made future jobs harder to acquire. So why was I affected so much. Financially not so much, emotionally floored. It was as if a friend (these were people who we're suppose to trust) had played a cruel practical joke and when you went to ask why, it was said you were the stupid one.

When trust is broken it never comes back, never fully anyway. So now I am angry and yet as I see the fear and hate being spread, I realize that is not the way to go. So what then?

I am not sure. I am just beginning to see how I can't let other peoples view of how I should be in the world tell me how to be. So much of what we have been told is a lie.

No matter what anyone does, it is because they want to be happy. I am not sure how this financial action that was taken made these people happier, however I do know their happiness will not last because they are looking for it, outside themselves.